My middle child is by far my most emotional. She is dramatic. She runs hot and cold. Happy. Sad. Loud. Quiet. Cuddler.
I know to expect the full range every day. Since day 1.
Now, my oldest is not so easy to read. She is normally quite calm. But oh when she rages, she rages. Then come the tears. Just like her mama (except I am not often calm).
Today, was a typical situation to set her off. Cleaning her room with her sister. One minute they are yelling. Then they are crying. Don't forget screaming and calling each other mean.
Oh the drama.
But this afternoon there was an added element.
My oldest had been meaner than typical. After they were done cleaning, I found her crying in the basement hallway. Alone. Where she hates to be alone. Ever.
She was sobbing and telling anyone who looked in to leave her alone.
I, as the mama, told her I needed to know what was going on.
"I am a horrible person."
"Why are you horrible?"
"I yell at people and get so mad."
Okay people, that is classic mama. And when the bad depression or the angry mania hits, I am that way even more. And this depression has lasted a long time with some mania plopped in for fun.
I hate seeing that part of me in her. Is it just the age that she is mirroring my emotions? Is she destined to be like mama?
I don't know what to think, but I will tell you, it has my stomach in knots. It is not the first time she has sounded like me to this extent, but I keep praying it will be the last.
It has been taken care of for today, but my mind is worried about tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come.
Do your kids mirror you emotionally? How do you react? How do you feel about it?