New Year's is right around the corner. In this two part blog, I hope to impart at least some wisdom that 2014 has brought me and share my hopes for 2015.
2014 brought several seasons of uncertainty. At one point I was an intern. And then I wasn't. And then I was again. The two months in between that brought about a lot of questions. Most of which didn't have immediate answers. But I've realized that those are the moments that God reveals Himself the most. I'm thankful for His grace, and the grace of others. I'm also thankful for second chances. He is faithful. Hold tight to that.
I was thrown into the world of no longer having either of my parents living, rather unexpectedly. I wasn't prepared. I wanted more time. But time is a gift. And a luxurious one at that. I didn't want to deal with it at first and desperately tried not to. But I'm thankful for the people in my life that held tight to me in those first few weeks. I wouldn't be here without you.
I attempted suicide for the second time in my life in June. Depression has a way of severely distorting how you think. And satan loves to add to the confusion. I'm glad that I have people that will ask me the tough and uncomfortable questions. And that won't take cop outs as answers. I almost ended my story this year. I'm so glad that I didn't. If you're reading this, I'm glad you didn't either.
I found Project Semicolon at the perfect time. Talk about a God ordained moment. I never figured that people would actually want to read what I had to say. Most of the people that read my blog were people I knew. And I never really felt like I was ever saying anything that important. Now my story has an audience. And I am so thankful for all of you and for this incredible organization that I get to be a part of and help grow.
Grace. Jesus. Redemption. Without any of those, I would not be here. Jesus saved me. He redeemed me. He gave me grace that I didn't deserve and never could have earned. But he gave it anyway. He sees me. All of me. And loves me still. I am redeemed because of Him. My story continues because of Him. He is the center of the story. He is who I hope to point to in everything I say, write, and do. If you don't know Him or want to know Him more, I would love to tell you all about the Jesus that radically changed my life.
Wednesday I will share my hopes for 2015. I will usher in a new year filled with promises and pages ready to be written in. 2014 may have been rough. But it's lessons will carry me through for years to come.
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Until next time,