Emotionally fighting with someone you care about should never happen, but unfortunately it's a part of life, and especially a part of my life living with my issues. This past week I have had my first fight with my girlfriend, it wasn't much of a fight and it was all, every last word caused by my inability to trust. That started in the morning and led into a fight with my best friend by the middle of the day. Bad things breed other bad things. This although bad has taught me that when you, or more particularly I, notice a day starting off bad or something happening that can be conceived as bad to stop it in its tracks. To move forward and push past the urge to bring down everyone around you because that's what I did and it caused more hurt and damage than was worth the original fight.
The good news is, dinner with my best friend, Justina, tonight has cleared all of that up. The fight with my girlfriend Mel, however trivial and because of my issues was seemingly fixed later that day. Of course it's a work in progress with Mel and learning to live being unable to trust or learning to trust (the unlikely option) is something that we both have to work on, and I will go more in depth about at a later point.
The point in this is when you notice something, that thing indie eating away at you don't let it bring you down, and more importantly don't let it bring down the others that you care about around you.
With much love,